So following on from the unlocking of the vault, I am continuing with much trepidation. For now, I probably just need to get over myself and everyone else. What has been done is done. I can’t change it. That being said, my lips are now sealed. There will be no more spilling, from me anyway.
It’s not that I want to live a secret life. It’s just really hard to find your own path, when so many people want to tell you what they think you should be doing. Ideas can get blurred and things get confusing and you end up agreeing just so people will stop talking. I have also found myself being defensive and argumentative in situations where my life decisions have been questioned. This makes me really annoyed at myself because that kind of reaction doesn’t suit me and is not my usual style.
I’m a big believer of not sweating the small things and that I can only be responsible for my own actions. I sometimes have to remind myself of these beliefs because I can get carried away and don’t put them into practice.
So, I’ve decided to take a deep breath (or maybe a few) and say goodbye to the bad vibes and move on.
After surviving recruitment boot camp, I have started a new job. It’s not my ‘It’ job and I don’t think I will stay forever, but it’s keeping me entertained for now. My official title is ‘Inbound Customer Service Agent’, which pretty much means people call me and I give them information. I’m casual, which I love. It gives me good flexibility to follow my passions and make the most out of my gap year.
My journey continues….